I am so frustrated with hindrances in my life (health, finances, lack of adequate manpower help etc.)  I am listening to some some teachings by John Paul Jackson on Youtube called 'Shatter'. It shows how to overcome hindrances and fulfil our destinies.   I have accomplished much (writing a book, speaking on radio and tv, newspaper articles etc.)......but have a long way to go. It seems like every step i take that is successful i end up having to face many frustrations. Of course i have set myself a high standard.................taking on social justice projects that need to be fought through sometimes...... waiting for doors to open at other times. And at the same time working through a medical anomaly that doctors don't know what to do with., and fighting battles for my family members. (South Asian family obligations on top of my own battles..........i am glad to do it cos i love my family. It is in my heart to be there for them even though it is quite challenging.). When hope and inspiration is waning.....then it is good to listen to motivational teachings, and anything else that gives courage, umpth to go forward in spite of, encouragement to keep looking to your dreams and not giving up.
I wonder if it is the time of year (today is the first day of automn?) ........or being tired of trying to fight an uphill battle (where is the summit?????). 
Any inspiration out there?

Thankfulness:

I am thankful for the war ending in Sri Lanka (don't condone the casualties etc. ... the innocent victims are in my thoughts).
For blogging and social networking.
For the lush beauty i see all around me in nature (the ever changing sky, radiating sun, illuminating moon, mystifying ocean with its bounty, sweet smelling flowers, upward reaching pine and cedar, fierce mountains.....oh the list goes on).
The warmth of friends and family.
Brain expanding higher education.
For culinary delights that tempt and satiate our senses.
Most of all my human spirit's ability to overcome; be resilient.

New Year 2009

Happy, Happy, Happy New Year to Everyone!

Loads of good wishes and love to every visitor to my site.


I know...i know....i need to update my site soooooon. Planning on it. But first i have to have my New Year party don't I?

Happy Valentines Day!!

Artist: Kelly Clarkson & Reba McEntireSong: Because Of You (Duet)Album: Duets (2007)
Lyrics:
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did, You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way To never let it get that far

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of youI find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of youI am afraid

I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone elseYou just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing

Because of youI never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of youI don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of youI am afraid Because of you Because of you

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Canadian author
life story
overcoming trauma
Canadian immigrant
South Asian culture
child abuse
recovering from abuse
physical abuse
emotional trauma
children's rights